Ifs, Ands, and Buts
1950-1966
STILL LIFE WITH VILLEINS AND IRIS
It all begins with an idea.
Once upon a time, there, lived a man all his life.
The wood, the thatch, the stones are washed away,
But underneath the iris stubs and rock, a knife
Or bowl or pot or broken cup could say
What was his daily bread. From the fields
Ralph came home, smelling like a horse or hay,
To swill his soup and want his wife
And laid her down, yes, every night
And went to sleep with bad dreams of the Devil
Riding the Scarlet Whore up steep and down.
Iris grow there now, their purple roots
Reach the nearest damp and, digging, clutch
At dreams of long ago and curl around the midden
Where he ate; and maybe some old bone that walked
Within the underling, chalks the flower white.
SUBURBAN NOCTURNE
It all begins with an idea.
On this level plot of ground, almost a square
Except for the five-foot stretch behind the house
Where hemlock and lilac screen the neighbors,
An Algonquian chief and eight of his tribe,
Exhausted from stalking the scattering deer,
Lay down at dusk beside spent horses
And slept, uneasy sprawled around a fire.
Perhaps there was one who kept on riding,
Riding, riding the deer, the creeks and ditches,
Who leapt with the deer to a deeper forest
And dark, deadlocked in branches and antlers,
Awoke, astonished, to hunt among the stars.
OUR INHERITED HOUSE
It all begins with an idea.
Suppose a god up there in the attic,
Maybe golden, lost among past days,
Some broken thing, not past mending,
That, pieced together, we could praise.
Suppose we found the pieces, arms, a leg,
And fused them to the torso, torso to the head,
And, as we did, the rafters, full of light
Lit up the fears we shatter in our bed.
Suppose the luminous mouth to speak,
Hands raised in a gesture of peace
To call us through the window to the sky—
My love, would we believe our blazing hearts,
Or come back here to the living room to die
IN MEMORY OF V.R.LANG (1924-1956)
It all begins with an idea.
I wore this very dress
The night that Virgil died.
I was there and I remember the brown brocade
With pearls like tears gleaming on the bodice.
We lounged at court, at ease, on lavender cushions,
Toasting Augustus, when Maecenas brought the news.
I remember you held his wrinkled ringless hands,
Avoiding relevant words. He looked like Death.
You rose to depart, draped like an autumn goddess,
The jewel I gave you burning at your throat,
And fainted. I caught you as you drifted down.
But, you were no friend to Virgil, wrote him no poems.
The hurt was deeper. Once we stood in the Forum
And stared at a pompous hearse. Your beautiful eyes,
Full of the tears of the ages, said everything dies.
PROMETHEUS
There was nothing in the paper bag but fire
Which I, unmoved, removed for other men
Moving away and away and toward the bag
As though under water rather than air.
They seemed indifferent but I could see
Excitement, once in a while, in their eyes,
When, especially bright and clear, flames
Passed from my cold hands to theirs.
THE PRODIGAL SON
My little drunken father, speak the words
Again that burned your sons. I will
Listen now with burnished ears and eyes
Golden with experience. Your love
Is moving now your touch is gone.
How far and such a road I traveled (sigh).
I come back almost too late to find you dead.
My feet! My feet, how many steps
On the jewels of the world and clean
Yet. My hands? You ask to see my hands?
You know, as well as I, they were not used.
But I have turned and turned and, coming home,
Have you at a distance in my arms.
OVERTURE III
Once yesterday, or maybe yesterday, at dawn,
I sat in the garden, mending The Poet's head,
One ear beyond repair, the other trumpeted,
Mouth dumb; but in his blue and lidless eyes
I heard the hoofbeats of The Cowboy's mare
And, cautious lest my movement summon him,
Rose, mysterious to shut the garden gate.
The hoofbeats dwindled. I returned, surprised
To find The Cowboy seated in my cast-iron chair,
Slouched and arrogant, fumbling to undo
The bloodied bandage in The Poet's hair.
I rustled. Even the words I spoke were dry:
"You are my image; the broken speechless face
You hold within your hands is my face too."
ATLANTIS II
Here in Atlantis the slopes I walk
Look like the streets on Beacon Hill:
Salt encrusts on everything like snow;
The sea I breathe is thick blue air;
And fish, up there, are aeroplanes.
This green-gold dome adrift, was once the Capitol;
That ivory archway where I went to church;
That rubble, where I first made love,
A shattered column in the thoroughfare.
Phosphorescent people pass, pale
Irishmen perhaps, engulfed. And I
Construct these verses while we drown!
FIRST DAYS AT BARMACO STATION
Nothing to drink in this desert for days.
Black girls bring me rose-colored waters.
They wrap cool ribbons around my head.
The food is a bane, a pain, a poison.
I lie for hours curled on my bed.
I pack and unpack my box and my trunk.
The northbound train carries others away.
Evenings, I walk with the village daughters.
These natives mean nothing to me--their ways
Are strange and sober. I would be drunk!
THE FERRET
My father standing with me by a woodshed spoke:
There are a million rabbits in that cord of wood.
With a weathered stick of lathe he pointed to a wedge
Where between the logs our old black spaniel
On her belly slipped in and chased them out
Like a ferret, said my father, like a ferret.
I took then the figures of his speech for fact
And even to this day when I recall my father
I see the woodshed where he stood like a magician,
The silver stick of lathe, the stack of wood, the wedge
With rabbits and rabbits and a ferret coming out.
THE FOREST
When, days later, we reached the end of the path
And lay at last among voluptuous leaves,
We swore we never should see days go by so fast again.
By day our words were marked by time, but all night long
The language that we spoke was, like the brightest star,
Fixed, it seems, forever, in one place.
Did you find out alone the high road back?
I know you sleep among the rows of empty houses now,
While I lie here, still, tangled in these leaves.
INTAGLIO WITH BIRDS
From Cherry Street, the mainway of my capital,
I walked across the tracks and out of town,
Leagued with goldfinches for the afternoon,
And, if brown thrushes were my heart's desire,
I said it simply so, brown thrushes are my heart's desire,
Nestled in the bitterbud and bridal wreath.
NAME YOUR POISON
That night, adrift, my lips upon your throat,
What potion did I drink, what poison,
That, when I think of you, recalls the passion,
The dark waves rushing at the boat.
THE PIED PIPER
The tune I played was only music;
Only the tone of my flute was magic,
Was what the children of that tropic,
That winter heard and found so tragic.